... kommt der Ex und dann geht es Richtung Köln.

Irgendwie bin ich heute unentspannt und freue mich nicht so,wie ich es sonst, ein paar Stunden vor einem Konzert tue.

...Doof ... Ich weiß auch nicht, ob es meine allgemeine Stimmung ist (gestern lief es ja zeitweise auch nicht so toll) oder es am Ex liegt... *lach* zu viel grübeln ist auf jeden Fall ein Punkt. Und der nicht optimale Schlaf auch.

Naja, vielleicht kommt die Stimmung ja gleich noch auf...wenn ich mir zu lauter Musik die "Kriegsbemalung" auflege...
Wäre schade, wenn der Abend von schlechter Laune vermiest wird! ...

Zur Musik

I have a problem that I can not explain
I have no reason why it should've been so plain
I have no questions but I sure have excuse
I lack the reasons why I should be so confused

I know how I feel when I'm around you
I don't know how I feel when I'm around you
Around you

Left a message, but it ain't a bit of use
I have some pictures, the wild might be the deuce
Today you saw, you saw me, you explained
Playing the show and running down the plane

I know how I feel when I'm around you
I don't know how I feel when I'm around you
I, I know how I feel when I'm around you
I, don't know how I feel when I'm around you
Around you

I, I know how I feel when I'm around you
I, don't know how I feel when I'm around you
I, I know how I feel when I'm around you
I, don't know how I feel when I'm around you...

Around you
Around you
Around you
Around you...

Ach ja... Montagmorgen halb zehn in Deutschland... Es hüstelt und röchelt um mich herum. Senioren deren traurige einzige Möglichkeit sich aus ihrem heimischen Exil zu befreien der Gang zum "Herrn Doktor " ist... Ich bin schon wieder "in Stimmung "...

Ich muss ausgerechnet an einem Montagmorgen los... Dann wenn es schön voll ist... die gerechte Strafe wenn einem die Medis Samstags ausgehen weil man nicht rechtzeitig an Nachschub gedacht hat.

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What if I wanted to break?
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor?
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do?

Come
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight?
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you

Come
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come
Break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down

(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break?
(What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you)
What if I, what if I,
what if I, what if I...
(Bury me, bury me)

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I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me.

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I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Because I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me here, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

You've gone away, you don't feel me here, anymore

The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn and no more left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broke when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

Undo these chains, my friend. I'll show you the rage I've hidden.
Perish the Sacrament. Swallow, but nothing's forgiven.
You and I can't decide which of us was taken for granted.
Make amends… some of us are destined to be outlived.

Step inside/ See The Devil In I
Too many times, we've let it come to this
Step inside/ See The Devil In I
You'll realize I'm not your Devil anymore

Under the words of men, something is tempting the father.
Where is your will, my friend? Insatiates never even bother.
You and I, wrong or right, traded a lie for the leverage.
In between the lens in light, you're not what you seem.

Step inside/ See The Devil In I
Too many times, we've let it come to this
Step inside/ See The Devil In I
You'll realize I'm not your Devil…
I'm Not Your Devil Anymore

Your Station- Is Abandoned- Fool You 'cause I know what you've done
Sensation- Depravation- You should've burned when you turned on everyone

So Step inside/ See The Devil In I
Too many times, we've let it come to this
Step inside/ See The Devil In I
Oh, when all that's left does not make sense
Step inside/ See The Devil In I
I know you'll find your answers in the end
Step inside/ See The Devil In I
You'll realize I'm not your Devil… anymore

So Step inside/ See The Devil In I
See The Devil In I
See The Devil In I

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She seems dressed in all the rings
Of past fatalities
So fragile yet so devious
She continues to see
Climatic hands that press
Her temples and my chest
Enter the night that she came home
Forever

She's the only one that makes me sad

(Please, get away, get away, get away, get away, get away!)

She is everything and more
The solemn hypnotic
My Dahlia bathed in possession
She is home to me
I get nervous, perverse
When I see her, it's worse
But the stress is astounding
It's now or never
She's coming home
Forever

She's the only one that makes me sad

(My imagination come alive. My imagination come alive, come alive!)

Hard to say what caught my attention
Fixed and crazy
Aphid attraction
Carve my name in my face
To recognize
Such a pheromone cult
To terrorize
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

Yeah!

I'm a slave and
I am a master
No restraints and
Unchecked collectors
I exist through my need
To self-oblige
She is something in me
That I despise
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me


I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me

She isn't real, I can't make her real
She isn't real, I can't make her
Real!

She isn't real
(She isn't real)
I can't make her real
(I can't make her real)
She isn't real
(She isn't real)
I can't make her real

When the days are cold
And the cards all fold
And the saints we see
Are all made of gold

When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood's run stale

I want to hide the truth
I want to shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

When the curtain's call
Is the last of all
When the lights fade out
All the sinners crawl

So they dug your grave
And the masquerade
Will come calling out
At the mess you made

Don't want to let you down
But I am hell bound
Though this is all for you
Don't want to hide the truth

No matter what we breed
We still are made of greed
This is my kingdom come
This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide

They say it's what you make
I say it's up to fate
It's woven in my soul
I need to let you go

Your eyes, they shine so bright
I want to save their light
I can't escape this now
Unless you show me how

When you feel my heat
Look into my eyes
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide
Don't get too close
It's dark inside
It's where my demons hide
It's where my demons hide.