I am an anti everything man
a scab on the lips of the lord
my caustic - dismissal
is all I need to get you
To fall on your sword

It's easy to live fast
It's harder to live
I woke up today with a gun
Ignoring your history
is killing your past
you might run forever
if death never lasts

So do me a favor
Your behavior
Is just a reason why
There is no savior
When you're wasted
Let's face it
There's a side of you that
Knows you're a failure
Lives for the danger
Feels like an enemy but looks like a stranger

The bell has rung on the titans
everybody give us some room
Your so called set of fake morals
I can't tell the difference
Is that an excuse?

The matter at hand
is a matter of time
A sad little kid with broken toys
Your dogmatic license
Has kept you inside

What will you do?
When you're burning alive?

So do me a favor
Your behavior
Is Just a reason why
There is no savior
When you're wasted
Let's face it
There's a side of you that
Knows you're a failure
Lives for the danger
Feels like an enemy but looks like a stranger

So do me a favor
Your behavior
Is Just a reason why
There is no savior
When you're wasted
Let's face it
There's a side of you that
Knows you're a failure
Lives for the danger
Feels like an enemy but looks like a stranger

I don't mind my old,
Dead story
And I don't want to lie to you
I know my glory
Will never be the same as truth
By now my only
enemy is you

I won't go slowly
I'll leave you behind
leave you behind
leave you behind
leave you behind

Es gibt so Tage...

Seit heute Mittag spiele ich private Pflege. M.´s Oma geht es sehr schlecht... da ich im gleichen Haus wohne bin ich die erste die zur Stelle ist und die letzte die da bleibt.

Klar habe ich die Verwandschaft informiert und Teile davon waren auch da... aber ich bin die, die "den Laden schmeißt". Meikamente überprüft, Blutdruck überwacht, gewaschen, Essen gereicht, Bett frisch bezogen, Inko-Material wechselt... toll wenn jeder weiß das man mal mit der Pflege "in Berührung gekommen" ist.

Und ich bin auch die, die sich abends, nachts und morgen Früh kümmert. Ich meine ich mache es ja gern, weil ich "Oma" ger habe und so weiß, dass es ihr gut geht... aber trotz dem.

Da sage ich der Tochter, die sich um 7 verabschiedet hat, dass ich mich melde wenn etwas ist... und die sagt:" aber erst morgen, ruf lieber die starken Männer an, wenn was ist." Mein Mund stand offen...

I remember now, but I still have my doubts
I think It's gonna be today
Everybody came, but it's just not the same
Why did it have to be today?

Now my chest is tight, no, I am not all right
It doesn't have to be this way
Why does it have to be this way?

I don't know what's wrong, it's like I'm too far gone
It doesn't matter anyway
Fear is in my heart, just when I stop it starts
And I can never live this way

Freedom in a cage, no sun and too much rage
I don't know how much I can take
Push it down inside, but it knows just where I hide
I know that "normal" is hard to fake

Bleeding into life, it's like a thousand knives
Are slowly turning me to this
Why does it have to be like this?

Yeah, I don't know what's wrong, it's like I'm too far gone
It doesn't matter anyway
Fear is in my heart, just when I stop it starts
And I can never live this way

I don't know what's wrong, it's like I'm too far gone
It doesn't matter anyway
Fear is in my heart, just when I stop it starts
And I can never live this way

I lost again today

I don't know what's wrong, it's like I'm too far gone
It doesn't matter anyway
Fear is in my heart, just when I stop it starts
And I can never live this way

Living with a curse, sometimes it's even worse
It slowly kills me everyday
Something I despise is gonna take my life
I guess I'll try again today